Ingrained

Dear ex

I have become quite depressed about our chance meeting.

Prior to that, I had hardy thought of you. 

Perhaps my relationship to you is entirely binding, like that of a father, mother or sibling.  No matter how uncomfortable or sad it makes me, and no matter how much I want it not to be in my life, it is a fact of me.  And no matter how long ago that it happened, you are ingrained in me on a cellular level.

I DO NOT KNOW HOW TO DEAL WITH IT.

I DO NOT WANT TO BE INAPPROPRIATE.

THE MALAISE I FEEL IS BECOMING QUITE CRUSHING.

I must find an appropriate place for it.

All my love xx